ClassyBlonde

just think ….

its crazy to sit here and think about all that has happened in my life. If you were to meet me today, you would never guess that deep down - im sad. Growing up in a military based family, i moved every three years, I was born in Washington State. We moved to Hawaii then to California and then to Georgia where im currently still living. In between all that time some major events happened. Such as: my parents getting divorced, which sucked so bad! & still to this day i rarely ever talk to my real dad. We were never close in the first place but do you know what it feels like when the one man thats biologically supposed to love you doesnt care to pick the phone to try and call - it hurts. My grandpa died from lung cancer and it was the worst news i have ever gotten. I never did get to say goodbye and i didnt get to go to his funeral. Not a day goes by that i dont miss him and his incredibly warm laugh. My brother, whom ive always been close with, joined the Air Force and got stationed in Germany. I am SO proud of him! He recently got married and just found out he is going to be a dad. Im so happy for him but …… i miss my big brother. I talked to him about anything, we hung out, we had inside jokes, he was my best friend & now i rarely ever get to talk to him. I dont want ANY of you to pity me because this is just a part of growing up but when you step back and realize how much youve been holding back it seems to all come out at once. Im a big girl and i know im strong but sometimes i just think too much and i cant help but cry because my life is NOTHING like i thought. I mean dont get me wrong, i have things in my life that im proud of and im happy to have the love of my family and friends. I even got got a new dad which i hated at first but over the years he has grown on me and has become the Father i always needed. I really cant complain cause i know i have it good and im very grateful for what life has thrown at me like my ex and i getting back together. We’ll be together 10 months on the 16th. He makes me the happiest ive EVER been and i love him with all of my heart. I want all of you to know that Life is Beautiful and you should always look on the bright side of any situation. If you dont like something CHANGE IT! its never too late to be happy. I love you guys <3 Thanks for keeping me sane and entertained. You guys are the best!